All my life, I lived rejection...loved few minutes and pushed away...my heart aches because of this... This is the reason I can't smile... This is the reason my guard all the time must be up... as soon as I dropped this happens... I have been left in the cold and alone. I am tired of being alone. I want to love and be loved... I want someone to hold me and tell me that "you belong to me" I needed this love and feeling of belonging... I needed that emotional support, comfort, sexuality, feeling of being desired by my man... Trust...I need in my life.